I Failed

I Failed

This year was the year I was going to get fit and healthy. At the end of 2019 I decided my new year’s resolution was to look after my body better; to eat better, drink more water, exercise more. You know, the general stuff people say at New Year.

So to promise myself that I was taking this seriously I thought I’d try one of my favourite Instagrammers challenges. I adore Chelsie from The Peachy Life, she’s so motivational and I thought that her Peachy Life 30 Day Programme sounded within reach of something that I could challenge myself to.

As it turns out, I managed 6 days and failed. The daily disciplines were as follows:

Wake up at 5.30 – I ignored this already as doing shift work meant that it’s impossible for me to always get up at 5.30. However I got up earlier than normal.

Drink 3 litres of water

45 minutes of exercise

10 minutes of medication

No junk food

No alcohol

10 pages of self help reading

Write down 3 things you’re grateful for

Take 1 picture a day of something that makes you happy.

I was convinced that it would be the alcohol and junk food that let me down but alas my main issue was that I just couldn’t fit 45 minutes of exercise into my day. I don’t want to dwell on the bits I didn’t achieve because really I want to talk about the concept of failure. The day that I didn’t achieve 45 minutes of exercise was a day where I worked my standard 14 hour shift and had another 14 hour shift coming up the day after. All day I had eaten well, drunk 3 litres of water, I’d read my book, done my meditation and yet I had failed.

I went to bed feeling rubbish and the next day I felt like I could carry on living life as I had been previous to taking on the challenge.

But something stopped me.

We so often count failure as the inability to follow through with something, without any regard to how hard we’ve tried to do something or the parts of something that we have managed to achieve. During the six days of the challenge that I fully committed to, I drank 3 litres of water every day – a massive achievement to someone who usually drinks two cups of coffee and no water all day. By not eating junk food or drinking alcohol, something that I’ve continued to do, my body already feels better, my skin has cleared up, my head feels lighter.

This feeling of being a failure when you’ve failed a small part of something is so ingrained into our psyche that it’s incredibly difficult to tell yourself otherwise. So while the actual rules of the challenge are that if you miss a day you must go back to the start, I’m making my own rules. I’m taking the parts of the challenge that made me feel good and carrying on, and if I miss a day on the journey then so be it. The continuous striving to be better will be advantageous to me regardless.

What To Do When You Feel Like A Failure

  • Reassess your goals – I took a good look at the reasons I wanted to do this challenge. I mainly wanted to get fitter and drink more water, both of which I accomplished, just not to the level that the challenge dictated. In that way, I didn’t fail at all. I still improved myself.
  • Realise that it’s normal to feel disappointed when you haven’t achieved something – disappointment is a totally normal feeling when you set goals that you haven’t reached. Don’t make yourself feel worse by feeling sad about being disappointed.
  • Keep trying – I took a few days off and then got back on the fitness and water wagon. It felt good to be channeling my energy into something again, instead of channeling it into beating myself up.
  • Remind yourself that failure is not who you are.

What are your top tips for when you feel like you’ve failed yourself? Let me know in the comments!

Rachel x-x-x


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